I am having issues bonding with my new horse, based on the situation what should i do?

Okay well the situation is that in 2012 i bought this amazing horse to learn on, he is well bred and beautiful, he was the perfect age (when i bought him he was 11), he had the best temperment and was literally the best horse i could have asked for...when i got him i fell instantly in love :) but two months after buying him he went lame and it was another 5 months before we found out what was actually wrong with him...the result of his injury is that he will never be able to canter, jump, compete ect... again. He was very expensive and i couldn't find a lease horse that was suitable and my trainer told me she found a horse...It was 4 years old, the wrong breed, too small, inexperienced in what i want to do. My mom bought him for me because of my trainer even though i told her i did not like the horse and it was not suitable and that we could find something better for a similar price. Its not suitable because i don't want to train a horse, i wanted to get a schoolmaster that could teach me and take care of me because i have recently had quite a lot of bad experiences while trying horses and a spooky youngster that needs to be tought lots is not what i needed. I rode him for the first time the other day and the ride ended in me crying, he was spooking and kicking out (this was on a road so i was scared that someting would come along and he would spook into the road). The trainer (who has at least 30 years riding on me) doesn't find him difficult at all and doesn't get what all of the fuss is about. We bought him to sell on in three years. The thing is my trainer doesn't think that i am trying to bond with him and that i am not grateful and basically being a spoiled little brat and said that if she doesn't see me making an effort i will be asked to leave the stable. I don't want to bond with my horse though and there are a few things causing this, i bought him to sell and if i bond with a horse then i won't want to sell it, I am bonded with my other horse and whenever i see my new one i just feel like i shouldn't have him. My trainer is riding the horse because i have work and i think that he is bonding with her and that is making it harder for me to bond with him. What should i do?



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