Okay so I just turned 15 like yesterday and I have two cats that are named snowball and minnie ( They're the cutest little furballs ) they were born in my house and ive had them ever since but now theyre 6 years old so they are less playful but we still let them out whenever they want to (we don't even own a litterbox) but now snowball has gotten home and he's limping because i think he broke his paw or something and im really sad. my parents don't want to take him to the vet because my dad spends all his money on his new girlfriend and my mom doesnt have a job. We actually are in debt and we may lose our house. Believe me I'm desperately trying to get a job. I have brothers but one has kids AND is living in our house because he's a 30 old man that likes to spend money on superficial stuff and my other brother is a psycho and he hates my cats. everyone in my house hates my cats, so i can't get any support with them. I just got birthday money ( 110 in total ) but i'm not sure that'll be enough to cover my cats trip to the vet. I've never taken them to the vet so they don't have vaccines or anything. I'll take the risk of getting rabies, i don't mind. What should i do? I've went through tough times being depressed and suicidal and going to the mental hospital 3 times and it may be foolish but my cats have helped me a lot. Even now that i'm more stable i sometimes breakdown at night and you don't know comforting it is to just have your cats warmth there keeping you calm. My family actually look forward for their deaths. my family are just so cruel and inconsiderate. They tell me if i get a piercing on my face i'm a disgrace to them or anything. they're so controlling considering they're the most irresponsible people i know. Now i'm attatched to the only family that i feel comfortable being myself around but i can't do anything about it. Now i know i can't cherish anything with these people i live with. I just wish i was an adult already so i can love the things i love without people threatning me or taunting me and putting me down. I'm not sure if i should give them away (seeing as i have nothing to offer them) because if i give them away to a shelter they might spend the rest of their lives their seeing as they're already grown cats and I don't want them to live their lives that because they're cats they're free spirited and i can't give them away to a friend because i only have friends that live in a bad neihboorhood. WHAT DO I DO? please, i've lost most of the things i deeply love and if i lose my cats well then im left alone. i'm afraid you can never love anything in this life i live in. Is my destiny really just to be alone and depressed or am i just better off dead? I wish my family would've never let me keep my cats because why would they let me love something just to rip me up into pieces. I didn't even want them to go out in the first place. i wanted them to be indoors but my stupid family don't care if they go out the door or not. my family is closed minded, selfish, cruel people. it's really hard on me because i have a big heart and sometimes i wish i didnt. sometimes i just wish i could rip my heart out because i don't wanna feel anything so deeply about something again. I've cried about this over and over again. I'm just so useless to my cats. Do i have to give them vaccinations? i don't mind if i get a disease. I accept death with open arms. how much will it cost for a cats broken front paw? WHAT DO I DO EXACTLY?
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